Monday, March 18, 2013

Broken Record: Broken Spirit

I've decided to start chronicling my training for the BP MS 150 2013.

Here's a first post to catch everyone up to where I am. 

I started this season with the plan of beginning with a 50 mile ride being ready to meet a midway point of doing 85 miles by the end of March.  As a goal I had decided to get ready for the LBJ 100 which has an 85 mile route.  That was a little over a month ago and to paraphrase Helmuth von Moltke, no battle plan survives contact with the enemy.
My first ride was ended with a flat tire on the cold, wet, windy side of Parmer lane where I and my riding buddy had to shield ourselves from the wind behind a gravel pile awaiting a friend to retrieve us.

From there I could only improve and I did adding a few miles at a time and mainly just battling the wind, my riding buddy and were able to do 48 miles the next ride.  I rode again on my own and this time with the wind in my face I decided to turn around at the 26 mile mark for a total of 52 miles.  While that was an improvement, my goal on that ride had been to make it up to Florence which would have been a 66 mile round trip. 

This last weekend (March 16), what I was only battling was my own stupidity.  That day I procrastinated leaving the house until well past any reasonable hour and decided to invite my friend along which allowed me to procrastinate even longer.  When I finally did get on the bike it was already 11:30 on what would turn out to be the hottest day of the year thus far.  Besides starting late, I hadn't eaten breakfast.  I'm not a big breakfast person anyway, so I thought, "How much is that really going to help?".  I took off anyway, the day was warm and pleasant and the westerly breeze was cool on my back.

I was about a mile or so from the car when I realized that I hadn't remembered to my water bottle fully, and thought, "gosh... I'm already getting such a late start and with three quarters of a bottle of water it's just not worth it to ride back and fill it up."

Things seemed fine, I was doing great and even having to stop and change a flat tire didn't dampen my spirits too much.  I knew I was getting a boost from the wind behind me pushing me along and I decided that I was going push past my 52 mile limit and commit to a full 60 mile ride. 

I got to my normal turn around point and with only a slight hesitation I zoomed forth into uncharted territory.  When I did reach my new halfway point, 30 miles I was pretty pleased with myself.  I stopped for just a moment to ponder my accomplishment, knowing that I was committed.  When I did turn around, that very moment that I turned around, I realized the depths of my self-deception.  Looking back on the strip of asphalt that stretched before me and feeling the wind in my face that had just been my kindest friend, I knew that she would be my most bitter enemy. 

Battling my way back against the wind, I started thinking of my water bottle.  My mouth was getting a little dry and I began to recall scenes from the movie 127  hours.  I thought about the full bottle of water back in the car.  I thought of the half dozen power bars that I had left in my camel back.  I thought of the bowl of oatmeal that I hadn't made for breakfast.

Surely,  I would reach a point where the wind would at least be blowing across my path.  I struggled against the spiteful wind at some point literally standing still when I quit peddling.  Rationing my water at sips at a time knowing there were no houses, looking longingly at the muddy rivers and creeks I was passing, with 15 miles to go, I came upon a house.  The brass of the faucet gleamed as if it were itself glowing.  It was an oasis in the desert. 

I finally made it back to the car and collapsed for a while before I even felt like driving.

So, on a happy note ... I rode 60 miles!